From the heart of Ummu Ameer

al kisahnya.. tadi after kepenatan g baking class from 10am-4pm.. bila sampai rumah je, terus ter on kan laptop. ter check lah my YM and friendster. ternampak lah yg my bro Umar tgh online, maka ter YM lah ngn dia. terbbagitaula kat dia yg his stomach was very much needed utk menghabiskan the breads and doughnuts that i have made kat class.. coz bawa balik 2 plastik besar roti and doughnut yg i have made kat class. so entah camne, dia tertanya la sedap ke tak roti2 tu, and tercakap la kat dia mestila sedap coz i paid an expensive fee. so dia pun tanya lagi berapa. i answered “50 euro for 2 days (coz kat france dia guna euro) murah jee. tapi rm250 for 2 days, mahal laa (especially utk org yg kemiskinan wang seperti saya ni)”

saya ter wonder la.. after umar dah g sebulan kat france, everytime we YM or Skype him, mesti cerita pasal tukar nilai duit. cthnya dia sewa bilik + makan 600 euro sebulan. bila convert jd RM, 600×5= RM3000 sebulan!!! just for a room and meal! giler mahal tak terkata. kalau kat malaysia, dah bole sewa banglo tuu, bole duduk satu family. and banyak la lagi benda lain.. kan kita semua tahu, satu hari di akhirat sama mcm seribu tahun di bumi (betul ke ni?). kadang2 kita rasa pelik macamana laa agaknye pertukaran tu eh?? dimensi yg terlalu berbeza, dunia yg terlalu berbeza..

and ummi selalu cakap, kita tak boleh compare duit malaysia dgn euro.. coz memang lain laa. tp i like to think about that.. sedangkan malaysia & france yg jauhnye baru la few hours naik flight… kita dah terkasima dgn nilaian tukaran matawang.. apatah lagi nilaian tukaran antara dunia dan akhirat sana… SUBHANALLAH!! barulah dapat menjiwai bagaimana sehari di akhirat berbeza dgn bumi…

If i were given the chance to choose the theme of my blog, then i would choose ‘bakery’. I guess that is 1 of the words that i like best. Truth is, most people judge a person through his/her writing. And they tend to be critical and conservational and theoretical as well (well i don’t say everybody, i say most). 1 thing that i like most is the concept Islam ad Deen- Islam is a way of life. It surely makes our life more meaningful and brighter. What is best with this concept is, it makes me feel that i am a good muslim even when i am baking =P or reading story books. Or writing everyday experiences in my blog, treating it as a diary all along. And yet sometimes i feel that it is inadequate to just laze around, feeling grateful all the time and enjoy my own life without doing something serious for the betterment of the ummah, for Islam. Or writing a blog on heavy issues related to Islam.

People might agree or they might disagree with my way. And that leads to the question “For whom do you write this blog?” and which forces me to answer “I write for myself” haha. My message is simple- Islam is a guide of how should we live our lives. Each of us can do anything that we want as long as it abides by the shariah. Being a muslim doesn’t spell the word OPPRESSION, but rather it symbolizes a true freedom within the boundary of worshipping Allah.

I am a muslimah who is striving to be a good one. Not to mention that each and every one of us should do the same. We make mistakes and we improvise.. that is the way I personally think should be- muhasabah and ishlah. Nothing wrong in sharing our ups and downs with others right?

And up to this moment, I still enjoy baking very much. And… i have baking class this weekend hahahaa. I baked pizza yesterday, and i baked moist chocolate cake the day before yesterday. Does that sounds too un-Islamic? =) I dream of opening a bakery hahahaa. A baker with MBBS degree insyaAllah =P

But Pizza Hut says something that sounds like nothing is tastier than having a split personality (if i am not wrong). I guess they are quite right after all.

hmm lama betul tak jenguk this blog. busy la konon huhu. having nothing to tell was definitely not the case. but i always wonder who read my blog? siapa? SIAPA? huu. of course i started to wonder when somone asked me “For whom do you write all these?” For myself of course! oh my such a narcissitic answer. when i pondered upon the question, i started to wonder myself “For whom do i write this blog?”.

I guess i use it as some kind of a diary.. where i can say anything i want, and keep forgetting that it can be easily accessed by the public. Well you see, some people can talk non stop if only they were given the chance and lent the ears. And some people can really write to such an unbelievable extent if only they were given the space. And obviously that’s me. Just don’t mention that the stuff being documented are nonsense huu (like what i’m doing write now)

And to be truthful, i always hope that nobody would bother to even have a glimpse of this blog. -sigh- and discover how unbelievable i can be- babbling around nonsensely. and to realize that i started off in writing this with an idea in my mind, and now i am about to stop, without dropping a single line on the actual thing i wanted to write on -sigh for the second time-