From the heart of Ummu Ameer

We were in the lift when somebody asked me, “Can thrombosis occur in the vein?” Then I answered bluntly “We do have a condition called Deep Vein Thrombosis”. Suddenly her face lightened and brightened up, she looked very excited similar to the expression of an innocent child when she gets an ice cream, “YES, BETUL LA PANDAINYA!!!!” I was extremely surprised by that unexpected reaction and burst into laughter “Huh??”

What syndrome should I call that? Huhu probably the medical students esp the IIUM medical students are in such a stressful period of Professional Exam time-territory.. The brain being fed with unimaginable amount of medical facts that discovering such a simple fact as ‘Deep Vein Thrombosis does exists’ can be a WONDERFUL experience hahaha

And I think I’m turning into a statue. A statue of a “medical student ‘hovering’ over a laptop”. Huhu. I don’t have any idea what I am doing staring at the laptop for hours! Berangan huh? So long, that I have to prop up a pillow on the chair just to support my vertebra. Isn’t my vertebra the one who has to support my body? Now I’m truly confused.. And suddenly I am haunted by the thought of getting Deep Vein Thrombosis, because I’m in a condition that is not much different from spending 10 hours on the aeroplane.

Oh my, I really need to take a break and talk to real people rather than babbling here.. Subhanallah

A Ghazel by Prof. Haroun Mustapha Leon, M.A., Ph.D., F.S.P.
[from the 'Islamic Review vol. 3 1915']

So long as the heart doth pulsate and beat,

So long as the sun bestows light and heat,

So long as the blood thro’ our veins doth flow,

So long as the mind in knowledge doth grow,

So long as the tongue retains power of speech,

So long as wise men true wisdom do teach,

The praise of God’s prophet, Ahmed the best,

Shall flow from our lips and spring from our breast.

‘Twas Rosul-Allah from darkness of night

Did lead us to Truth, did give to us Light,

Did point out the path, which follow’d with zest,

Leadeth to Islam and gives Peace and Rest.

Praise be to Allah! ‘Twas He who did send

Ahmed Muhammed, our Prophet, our Friend.

A friend told me her problem.. she wanted to be engaged. The prob is the man hasn’t asked for her hand in marriage. So I justified that maybe the man is not ready. I mean she doesn’t want to get married now anyway. She said she just want to be engaged and not married. So I asked her “Are you sure?” What is the benefit of being engaged and not married? Utk ketenangan hati. Hahaha. Are you sure?? So I told her, but if you are engaged and not married, lagi teruk nanti. Banyak penyakit hati pulak. I don’t know..

Then she asked me something that sounds like mcmna communictn btween psgn bertunang in Islam? Huhu susah nak jawab tu..To be truthful.. I don’t know. Then I started to make a sound that resembles “emm.. aa emm i think…: when she cut me short by saying “It’s a gray area?” Immediately I said “YES”, relieved hehe.

Some people say an engaged couple can’t look at each other’s picture, but there’s a hadith which says that one should look at the person that they are going to marry so that love would form between them.

Some people say that an engaged couple can’t talk to eachother on the phone.

Some people say that an engaged couple should talk to each other on the phone so that they will know each other better, but they have to limit the frequncy of call.

Some people say that an engaged couple should not sms each other because it is a source of fitnah. but some say they should.

What about YM? To some people that is even worse because you don’t have to think how much you have to pay for each message sent unlike sms.. and that will create a tendency to go even astray farther

Really I don’t know myself. Probably those who are engaged or well versed in this area should educate us =P

It was a fine day. And I was in a fine mood. Probably due to our classes which would end before Zuhr. However it was a different day because we were scheduled to to take the first dose of Hepatitis B vaccination. A preparation for clinical years.

I didn’t feel nothing. Scared? Nope. I am 22! Shouldn’t feel scared of an injection. Except that i expected to have some kind of reaction towards the vaccination. After all i used to be ‘bestowed’ with fever everytime i receive vaccination.

The injection was not painful though. I didn’t even noticed it. The first thing I knew was the Dr was applying alcohol on my skin and the next thing she said “Ok, dah siap”. Huh??

After I walked out of the clinic, my hand started to feel numb. The slightest movement triggered a painful sensation. Myalgia. Paresis. II couldn’t even swing my hand while walking so I walked back to the hostel like a robot. Huhu

I made a major mistake. I am a left-handed person but i forgot to tell the doctor to inject on my right arm. Oh my. Never mind, I’ll just tolerate with it for few days.

The next day i started to feel the fever catching up on me. A normal immune reaction. But then i started to have nausea and retching that night. My hafazan class is tonight, please please don’t start anything funny yet. I need to go to the class as I have skipped for more than 1 month..

Alhamdulillah I managed to attend the class. Although I am sure everybody thought I acted funny. Then a friend came to my room. She’s depressed, and I didn’t mind beng the one to console her. We talked until after midnight and throughout, I changed my position thousands of times (an exaggeation =P) as i could feel the vomiting coming. Finally she returned to her room..

I tried to read something on neuroanatomy. Tomorrow is the cadaver session and I promised someone that i would assist her in that session. How ambitious does that sound hehe? But really I couldn’t concentrate. In the end i just gave up, close the book and tried to get some sleep. But I couldn’t sleep as well. Finally after endless tosses and turns, the clock showed the time of 5 o’clock in the morning. Nausea and retching were still haunting me. I went to the toilet, take wudhu’. And then,

That was when the horror of bouts of vomiting started. Luckily i have prepared a plastic bag for that uneventful event huhu. And i vomitted continuously that i didn’t know whether there was anything left in my stomach to be throwed up. It was painful. And it didn’t spare me the vertigo as well. The feeling was so horrible. And i felt like crying all the time. A dear friend came to assist. I think almost the whole block can hear me throwing up.

She kept saying to me “Ni belum morning sickness lagi” Huhu.. lagi teruk ke nanti?? I couldn’t eat or drink anyhting or i would start to vomit again.

In the afternoon she bought me to the clinic. I got another injection of anti emetic. At times i feel like crying continuously and the feeling of wanting to go back home overwhelmed me.

So what was that all about? It was an adverse effect of the vaccination. Ummi kept saying to me, “Ni badan lemah ni, tak suka makan etc” And i had to bring forward various counterarguments that sounds like “Having an adverse effect doesn’t mean bdn lemah, it just happens to some people”. She was worried and I know that, she called me few times to check on my condition… A loving touch from a mom..

Today is the 3rd day of this adverse effect of vaccination. In 1 month time, I have to take the second dose of vaccine -sigh-. I feel much better today although today i still have the nausea. And i still can’t eat anything. Most of the times i feel sad because i sleep all the time. The anti emetic was doing a good job a acting like a general anesthesia. It put me to sleep huhu. And i regret the times that had passed without being filled with beneficial activities such as reading Snell Neuroanatomy. However, I keep forgetting that this is a type of kaffarah dosa…Just bein patient is beneficial. And i have to keep reminding myself that “IT WASN’T EVEN MENIERE’S DISEASE” and i feel grateful after all.. ALHAMDULILLAH

Remember Just Remember
By Anonymous

When things are down
And you are out of your mind
Remember just remember

Allah is The Kind.

When your life is in darkness
And nothing is right
Remember just remember

Through the darkness Allah is The Light.

When nothing makes sense
And your heading for demise
Remember just remember

It doesn’t make sense, but Allah is The Wise.

When times are troubled
And no one seems to care
Remember just remember

Allah won’t hurt you, He is The Fair.

When your heart is breaking
And your pain makes you fall
Remember just remember

Allah Sees it all.

When you are weak
And the road seems long
Remember just remember

Seek strength from The Strong.

When life is a burden
And everything is unstable
Remember just remember

Allah is The Able.

When the way is cloudy
And there is no one by your side
Remember just remember

Allah is The Only Guide.

When no one wants to listen
Or is willing to lend an ear
Remember just remember

Allah is always ready to hear.

When you are poor and penniless
And you are stuck in a niche
Remember just remember

Allah is The Rich.

When you are down in your misery
And there is nowhere to run
Remember just remember

You can always run to The One.

When your all alone
And your pain has no end
Remember just remember

Allah is your Friend.

And when your scars are hurting
And your heart is in fear
Remember just remember

Allah is really here.